It could be Amber DRPG, Vampire, AD&D (though I don’t see why I should bother here, because I want to wait until 4th ed for this), Shadowrun, or CyberPunk.  Shadowrun is my most familiar, but if you know me, you know that the dice are secondary and that I’ll put spaceships in AD&D and knights in armour in Shadowrun, so… yeah.  UNRELIABLE, ME.  Sorry?

More details to come.  Feel free to email me at my LJ address if you’re curious.  My goals for the month are to write and package a one-shot game and write a screenplay.

• March: 104525 (Goals: 30/50/100)
• February: 31373 (Goals: 30)
• January: 50018 (Goals:30/50)

Biggest accomplishment: My first (that I know of) six figure month.

Projects: I worked on five different pieces over the month, finished two, stalled on two, worked on one for the last four days.

What I did differently: Mobic and Dragon Naturally Speaking 9. Less pain, less finger-work. I broke my headset today and need my computer upgraded so it will be gone for a week. I am not expecting a similarly spectacular April.

Next month: April goal is reset at 30k (average of 1k/day for the year is the annual goal). I am also thinking of doing http://www.scriptfrenzy.org/. I’m signed up again. My goals for April are to get some other (screenplay) writing done and to get at least 10k into the novel I really wanted to write this year.

I slept like crap last night, and I think part of it is because I had a diet Dr. Pepper (thank you, Dragon, for translating that as didactic cover, that should be the name of a cover band), and part of it is because I quit taking the Lyrica that I’ve been on for almost six months now.  I never did get up over seventy five milligrams a day, two in the morning was too much, taking one during the day made me sleepy, two at night worked great but then I would lose time later when the drop of the drug in my bloodstream would cause me to have dizziness and stomach pains.  I would make the worlds worst drug addict.  I have absolutely no tolerance for any kind of negative side effect with medication.  Life is hard enough without adding to it that way.

Today, I need to get about two thousand words in, at least, and then in theory we’re taking a drive down to my parents in that cargo van I rented yesterday to drop off two dining room sets, one sofa, one chair, and some coffee tables.  After that, it’s up to IKEA to purchase the furniture we’re going to replace all that with.  The driving alone is making me anxious, especially with the weather having turned to shit, and on top of that we are going to spend a whole bunch of money.

I hate spending money.  I hate driving places, even if I am not driving.  I hate getting rid of things.  I think I’m just going to hate today.  I could be wrong, though.  So.  Happy face on!

As an addendum, the novel that I wrote earlier this month was accepted by the e-publisher I submitted it to.  I’m really pleased about that, especially since they don’t expect too many modifications.  It was really nice to find myself asking questions before I told them to send me the contract.  It’s good to be getting into a position where I’m no longer a wagging puppy over having my work accepted.

Okay, off to shower and dress, then writing-time!

1a. This has nothing to do with how I feel about you.

1b. If you ask me directly to read something, tell me what you want from my review, give me context, and I have time, I may read your writing. If it is a novel, I probably won’t.

1c. If you get published, I may read your writing to see what got you published. I probably won’t, though.

1d. I do not expect you to read my writing. Wanting, wishing, and expecting are not at all the same.

2. I will happily support you as a writer, when you need help pimping your work or getting reviewed or writing a cover letter or even just coming over and chatting on your blog to make it look like you have fans and colleagues.

3. I write for publication. If you think this makes me a traitor to my muse or some kind of whore, you may kindly take a hike.

4. I hate it when you blow me off with ‘oh, your writing is always good’ when I talk about wanting to improve, or ask for your thoughts on things. This is an art, I practice it, and I like making it better. It’s not a sin. I don’t mind if you don’t want to talk about it, though.

5. I hate it when you go on about how you wish you could have my wordcount; I understand, and you could have it if you did nothing else for eight hours a day like me and were housebound with PTSD. I wish I could take the bus. Also, reflect on all the years I didn’t even have use of my hands and couldn’t tell the difference between the iron and the milk jug, and so on… I earned every six-figure month I can scrounge up. I’m proud of my progress but I don’t want you to feel bad because of it.

6. My characters may have the names of your characters. We share a common tongue, and I use names from other cultures as well. This happens. Do not point it out unless you are amused and wish to share the funny. Your cognitive dissonance is not my problem. I have the same problem in turn; you will never hear about it from me.

7. This is what I do. This is what I’m good at. This is all I have right now. I don’t think I’m a better writer than you, or a better person than you. I have no investment in either. I want you to be a good writer. I want you to be a happy writer. I don’t have time to help you or teach you; I’m all worn out on that count. If reading my writing on writing helps you, I’m thrilled. If you feel worse than me or something, I’m genuinely sorry. That sucks hardcore. I feel that way a lot about a lot of writers.

8. I know nothing. There’s so much to know about writing and I know so little about it, that it amounts to nothing. Please file my words of wisdom accordingly.

9. I have to go write now.

Back to the top of the stairs with me. Time to pick a staircase and throw myself down again.

Easter weekend, which means to me — less writing time. Less wordcount. And it harshes my plans to make this a 100k month. *profanity goes here* I should suck it up and smile, but I’m just not that inspired.

The choice between tags and categories is baffling and irritating me. *uses categories instead* Maybe tags are for more trivial and ephemeral things?*

EPHEMERAL. One of my favourite words ever.

Time to write, time to plot. If I do a mindmap today, I’ll photograph it and post it.

*Edit: I notice that this layout calls ‘categories’ = ‘tags’ and doesn’t show tags. EASIER FOR ME. Or maybe I’ll hack it later so I can be retentive that way.