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2008 Total: 245566

• April: 59650 (Goals: 30/50)
• March: 104525 (Goals: 30/50/100)
• February: 31373 (Goals: 30)
• January: 50018 (Goals:30/50)

May is off to a terrible start.  I think I’ve written 900 words.  I’m going to have to work my ass off just to pull myself back up to a 30k month.  Wish me luck.

your exhalations stroke my aura
gathering floss

the soft twist of your inhalations
draws me into you

the fragile spindle of your heart
winds me tighter

Chay Magazine, a new Pakistani publication (Having observed in Pakistani society, a disturbing tendency towards fear and shame around issues of sex and sexuality – that is to say, around a normal human interaction – the founders of Chay Magazine feel that sex and sexuality should enter the public discourse.) is looking for submissions, and just plain looks good.  Via Muslimah Media Watch.

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This outing of young men by an over-controlling principal is just horribly painful to me.  It makes me sad and angry and I hope they’ll be okay.  I also feel for all the hetero couples  who were also outed.  These things can be dangerous also for young women, and even men, depending on their family situation.  One of the young men was also dropped from a rebuilding trip to New Orleans because some faculty were afraid he might “embarrass the school” or engage in “inappropriate behavior.”  What the fuck, people.  Seriously.  Grow up.

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Read me clearly: there is no point to feminism if it does not actively address its racism with its agenda. There is no point to feminism if it does not address its racist history, racist matriarchy, racist icons, racist literature, racist imagery, racist publications, racist presence. To claim we’re all female and unite under one cause of gender does. not. work. History never lies. This model has left more marginalized women in the road than we can count. Why the dichotomous split between gender and race, as if we live separately from the strands of our hair to the color of skin to the anatomy of genitalia.

  …from myecdysis

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I got my bracelet from elisem a few days ago and I’ve been wearing it whenever I can. I love it. It’s magic. It makes me happy to look at the skull grinning on my wrist. On Fridays, Elise lists her works available for sale. Everything she makes is so spirited. It’s worth just going to look at what she’s created. Her titles are the best.

http://asksistermarymartha.blogspot.com/2008/04/fun-with-jesus.html

Why do we feel the need to make Jesus cute, or our pal? I have a hunch about why. The things He had to say were radical, often offensive, to the people to which He was speaking. The things He asked us to do are just about impossibly difficult. Love your enemies.

&e recommends just going ahead and reading this blog…
http://myecdysis.blogspot.com/2008/04/accepting-kyriarchy-not-apologies.html

Let me break this down for you. When people talk about patriarchy and then it divulges into a complex conversation about the shifting circles of privilege, power, and domination — they’re talking about kyriarchy. When you talk about power assertion of a White woman over a Brown man, that’s kyriarchy. When you talk about a Black man dominating a Brown womyn, that’s kyriarchy. It’s about the human tendency for everyone trying to take the role of lord/master within a pyramid.

http://myecdysis.blogspot.com/2008/04/apparently-feminists-need-acting.html

One of my favorite students ran into my office today and dramatically collapsed on my couch. Before I even asked what was on her mind, she sat up and shared her wisdom, “Do you know what my acting coach told me today? She said, ‘Listening means having your life changed.’”

http://fetchmemyaxe.blogspot.com/2008/04/yes-and.html

This is just sort of a general rumination on what some people call “constructive discourse/action.”

In improv theatre, or certain acting exercises in regular theatre, we used to have this trope called “Yes, and.”

some days I hate my country as much as the next one…
http://blog.iblamethepatriarchy.com/2008/04/28/fetuslove-canadian-style/

Anyway, what’s got LEAFer Bonnie Gembey’s oysters in a pot is a bill working its way through Parliament, Bill C-484. This bill would grant legal personhood to — say it with me — fetuses. The sentimentally-titled “Unborn Victims of Crime Act” would allow authorities to press additional, more bad-ass charges if a fetus (the “unborn child”) is aborted concurrent with a violent crime perpetrated against a woman (the “mother”).

I figure I might as well follow my tracks around the blogosphere. I haven’t got the nerve to comment places; I don’t know why. I’m really vocal on LJ. Ah, well. If I can’t speak, I can link. Right?

“What we have here is the top 106 books most often marked as “unread” by LibraryThing’s users. As in, they sit on the shelf to make you look smart or well-rounded. Bold the ones you’ve read, underline the ones you read for school, italicize the ones you started but didn’t finish. Here’s the twist: add (*) beside the ones you liked and would (or did) read again or recommend. Even if you read ‘em for school in the first place.”

I would star them but I don’t remember liking them, honestly.  My memory is damaged by being ill. 
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So, here’s the start of me catching up. It’s going to be cut for length, but read on.  Fear not (or regret, as you will), there is minimal controversy within.    [Read more →]

Cut for sensitivity, profanity, and ranting about abortion issues.

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The rest is in edits. This is part of a letter I sent to my e-wife and my <3 girlfriend today.  I didn’t really work this out until right now.

But the truth is, we are grownups.  We feel like children because we feel worthless or scared or voiceless and that’s what children are.  We feel like children because we don’t have the mad, crazyass manipulative, violent power the grownups had when we were small.  But that’s just it.  We’re grownups.  We’re just not CRAZY growups.  And most grownups may be a little batshit, but they’re not CRAZY.  Not like we’re used to crazy.